Dear Open ,

That’s my judgement of my own situation on account of the legal quagmire I have been pushed into to reclaim my daughter’s and I property . As I wrote the above ,I had a flash of karmic knowing about how this is a replay so to speak for both my daughter and I ,giving away our power on many an occasion. And something just equalised in the action of writing the above statement.

The soul sucking nature of the Matrix is because through the eons I have “given myself up “ in so many ways to gain some sense of identity ,surety in chaos. Recently ,I encountered a veritable pillar of the matrix - a retired police officer who I have asked to help me navigate the system. Even asking him for help was so hard :) Another judgement about not having to ask for help and bludgeoning through on my own.I have also manifested bruises all over my skin at this time - seemingly after a small accident. ( There are no accidents :))

It’s layer upon layer showing itself these days . Knot after knot is coming up to be seen. Poverty consciousness,giving my power away ,trying to control what others think of me so I am safe in some shape or form . What is miraculous though is how every teeny tiny shift within seems to be reclaiming me to my own true self . Every time my little self is aware enough to observe through what is a complicated tapestry of karmic influences ,its almost as though another skein of energy joins into what is feeling like a tidal wave of my soul .

In reference to your article ,it is waking every day willing to have fresh eyes on the same situation which is allowing me to gain all my lessons from it . I am so grateful to be alive .

Megha