Hi Jen, the line that jumps out of your sharing to me is at the beginning...

"What I am struggling with is the sense of pressure to move in a direction or not to within a time constraint"

Personally I would regress into what that sense of pressure does on the inside, and what arising energy it might block out. Another thing you seem to have been working with is the spontaneity of higher mind. This could easily be blocked out by any attached sense of pressure to have to do something.

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