I've worked to reflect this a fair bit, and will do so as caringly as I can.
I sense there's a degree of disconnect from the lower densities, and an energy working there which wants you to avoid looking too hard. It's clever. It knows the "right" things to say spiritually so as to divert external attention. But I'm clear I can see it. Assuming you can resonate with what I'm saying, there would be a need to break into the lower chakras more deeply.

Bright blessings

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