Hi Richard,

I'm also reading autobiography of a yogi. Interesting synchronicity. Beautiful and inspiring book. I especially like the part where mukunda accepts a challenge from his brother and goes to the town with his friend penniless but returns with gifts for him. I recently read another one by Mingyur Rinponche which had inspired me a lot.

I suppose what inspires me is the courage and commitment to be true to the soul, come whatever may. I was meditating before and had a thought where does this fear of resources come from. Maybe it's a sirius karma of the feeling of being abandoned by god and then lack of trust and control. When I operate from such a place, it doesnt lead to any fulfilment. Yet when I'm in the place of creativity, I feel passionate and accepting of myself. Does being in my creative zone, pays the bill? I don't really know but I have to find out. As I project my thoughts into the future, I think what's there to loose? At the very least Il go back home drop all my recording stuff, laptop and take off with my tent and ukulele. When I think about it, it fills me with excitement. But I know this is only the mind projecting to the future.

What's else is there to do, other than being in this flow? The paradox is that, the flow will always a find a way to flow. How can it not? That's its destiny. Maybe at times it will hit karmic barriers. Then I will sit, resolve it out and then flow again. I have to remind myself to not take it seriously and be patient when that happens. But my soul says, I'm not ready to give up the truth of my soul, for 3D comfort.

Great that you are going through such a powerful process. I especially resonate with the last part - "When I go inside I perceive the ultimate okayness of pure being and know that even if I die, at this level all is well."

Thanks for sharing.