I feel for you Kim - I feel the honesty and integrity in your inquiry *give_rose*

Perhaps it might help to have a deep exploration of the nature of perfection. In terms of our evolution, perfection is a paradox: in an absolute sense, everything is perfect, because nothing is undone. In the relative sense - where we come into separation - there is also perfection, just of a different kind.

It is worth working with this contemplation: I put it to you there will never be perfection in our alignment, within the relativity - the higher you go, a new exploration always catches you out to a degree. But it's not about efforting to achieve this kind of perfection. It's simply about how could you do it better than before? In a more aligned way. Whilst simultaneously accepting where you are currently at. Yes it's a paradox - but so is life.

Remember there are no mistakes: even our imperfections are perfect - it's in resolving them that we come ever closer and finer to an actual experience of the One.

Also work to realise it is not about getting somewhere - in the relative sense. In the relative - the universe of separation - there is ONLY the process. Work to let go of the need for an outcome, even if self-realisation is your goal. Let go of even that goal!!! Simply entertain yourself in the process itself.

I find this enables you to be both satisfied where you are at, AND inquiring of something more aligned and evolved.

Maybe this helps a degree.

Blessings

Open *OK*