Yeah...

I am not sure I'd use the word "disillusioned", I'd use the word lazy and unmotivated... But also yes, I was hoping for an outcome; an outcome of not wanting to go back home by myself again, I just want a partner to hold hands with....... someone I can hug and use as a pillow.... someone to care about not knocking when sleeping....

As a child, when I played computer games I always liked playing the character designated as the "tank", the guy with a shield and heavy armour that takes the most amount of damage on behalf of the team. And it always felt pointless to take damage if my team wasn't there, just a waste....

Sort of pointless to cary that armour if there is no one else to protect... so it felt pointless to meditate and eat healthy food, there was no one else to hold hands with. No one else to dance with, no one else to cry with, no one else fart with....

Ahhh just fanciful notions about a romantisized fantasy that will surely amount to disappointment.... but I do have an observation; every time I get attached to a girl, if times of stress arive, may it be a deadline, moving far away or just organizing a party, the girl I am attached starts to pull away... Everytime! I liked one girl, I started writing my thesis and she stopped speaking to me. I moved to Hong Kong and faced big cultural shock and stress (there is few potatoes here, and that is my favourite food!!!!), another girl I was attached to stopped speaking to me. My first ever girlfriend, she broke up with me when I had to give a presentation to the Hong Kong government justifiing why they were paying me.... And, you guessed what is happening now hahaahah.

Anyways, I want to share a quote I found on the internet, a quote from 1986:

To Dr. Ehrlich, to look to technology for the answer to the loss of biological diversity would be ''a lethal mistake.'' He said that some steps could be taken to ameliorate the crisis but that what was needed is ''a revolution in attitudes toward other people, human numbers, what human life is for and the intrinsic value of organic diversity."

https://www.nytimes.com/1986/09/28/us/action-is-urged-to-save-species.h…

The reason I share it is I feel that all those scientists, they had their fanciful notions that society would listen to them back then. That their voices would be heard and people might change their attitudes. Ah the disappointment they felt

It seems that society thinks there is 26 pages of information more important than "We have entered the 6th mass extinction because we are killing things", and even then this information uses about 15% of the page, with 70% of the page being a picture of a pretty woman with no relation to this article...

Thanks for having this website dude!!! It really is a hidden gem in this cyberspace!

Rayko

ps. Isaac Newton predicted the end of the current world to be at 2060. OOO do you think he got the pole flip date correct?