Hi Blue Petrichor,

I love how you said this:

"I am still not sure what I am going to do, it will all go wrong or not, but what is different this time is that at the beginning I was taking the same road to this new decision, and now I am out of this repetitive pattern."

This is so relevant for me as well right now. I was terrified of making mistakes, or rather, the consequences of the mistakes, like being rejected. I still am, but I recently arrived at a point where I'm more able to let go of letting it define me. Realizing that closing myself down in order to avoid the pain of rejection might feel safe, but brings with it the even greater pain of never letting love in (or out), not being myself or being able to grow.

Awesome how we sometimes after a long time of being stuck suddenly just get it!

x Hannah