Thank you all,

If ever there was anything that really called me to OH was exactly that - here I received the acknowledgement of the place of pain, not only in life but in the process of spiritual (or just simply personal) unfolding. Thank you for holding this place.

Erica: You say
"I think truly honoring the pain occurs as any identity dissolves, it felt like misfit/maverick provided comfort which just morphs into another mask or distortion. When the identity dissolves then the initial vulnerability or nakedness or feeling exposed occurs. If we jump into another space suit...we are right back where we started. I hope this helps others in some way."

Yes. And: "truly" honouring pain (Pure, undistorted Pain that is) in my experience equals to totally giving oneself up to its flow. "One with the pain", Open often says. This is the way it can become an amazing laser precision carrier energy into and out of density -- it takes one beyond multidimensional / karmic "knots" in the Soul (aka identities).

When there is PURE pain, it is like fire. Rips away all that is unnecessary -- a transformational energy, mysteriously very similar to undistorted, Pure LOVE.

In both cases though, in-pain and in-love experiences in our lives, we have so much conditionings and so much fear to let go of that in fact, MOST of the time we only jump from one suit into the other, tasting the raw freshness of "air" on our naked skins temporarily, for a "taster time" only before wrapping ourselves back into something else.

Because not only it is (a recurring) period in the whole spiritual process (aka Life) where the gems are really hidden but also where the greatest dangers lie. Its delicate vulnerability makes it all too easy for external (but often internalised) influences to suffocate, or distort, the budding sense of pure beingness (and more).

So I've been really into an exploration of the idea of transitional, or trans-identity states (as one does not immediately dissolve into oneness, of course). When I was in one of my deepest, most in-pain processes of my life and almost dissolved into non-being (here on earth) I learnt something about the beauty of these states - the freedom of using them according to the soul's calling.

In shamanism it is called shapeshifting. It is actually a preliminary method of soul healing: first to accept that while here on earth these states give a framework to function by (called ego). And then: to grow up to the fact that they do not define one but are to be used, taken and thrown away for the benefit of all.

At the moment I find the most peace in transitionary states - as (where I am) it seems the closest to who I am (not).

Love,
Réka