Your welcome Jenny! And also thanks to you and Open for your input and sharing of your experiences. Just by sharing I feel a lot of clarity can be gained and the pieces of the puzzle will slowly fall into place. At least for me. I recognize the wanting for the illusion to go away. Yes we want to move forward don't we? But we can not force it or exercise any control over it. But to me your posts are showing me a very authentic drive, a deep rooted will to move beyond the ego. That's as authentic as it can get and very inspiring to others. So I'm glad you posted even if you are not sure if it came out of wanting something. You at least show the processes that you're going through in full honesty and that's something I can learn something from having problems showing my struggling self and often instead project a 'perfect' spiritual self.

Namaste sister Jenny and brother Open. Feeling gratitude for this experience, connection and this forum in general!

Let's all drop one drop at a time into the endless sea of the Seer!