So so understand now. Bit embarassed by the old miss fix it atitude, always trying to put everyhing in order when it's perfect the way it is without even understanding the big picture, my apologies. Letting go is certainly something i need to do more of. i had an experience of ramping up before i was ready; i had stopped cannabis and gone full vegan but the nature of my living circumstances made it hard to cook so i spent a few months mostly snacking so i was taking in less calories. i normalized then overcame the hunger and started to gain this flighty, erratic energy until one friday after work i was at a friend's who offered me cannabis. First i went into an alarming disassociative state probably from the company i was with which was quite negative. when she was gone i then spent the next few hours in a state of extreme, quickly cycling highs and lows. At one point i heard someone calling for help (i'd had previous expperience wiith clairaudience) which scared me senseless, and then when i called Archangel Michael for help, i actually saw his light comming through but ii was so freaked out i ran and hid under my covers lol! No warrior here, pure jellyfish lol but the last few months have really brought up my shadows and i've managed to somewhat process some density so i understand much better now why i wasn't ready for that faster higher vibe yet. Still embarassed miss know it all showed herself, i now know i know nothing. Grateful to you🙏💙