Thank you for the response! I have no clear idea what or whom it is either. I've just resolved lately to do my best to ignore that moment when I hear my name being called and like I said.. Mentally/visually throwing up dictionaries and just saying "Grab a sentence, because this is getting old! Or my last resort of..I am changing my name, just call me, Hey you!"

I feel like Ive gone a complete route to decipher where its coming from, and sometimes I think I might know, then the whole gamut goes around again of my internal why, whats and no..Just no. I know I'm not giving much information about it, and I just at this point am giving up on trying to figure out what the entire point is you know. The thing is though is I just don't as a rule give up on anything. I have pretty much looked hell straight on and lived to tell that tale, I have and would forever go a thousand rounds for mankind/everything in general. But this, this is just to much for me to handle I guess.

Regarding your books, I am going to get them all. Just these things take time and I cant wait. Very excited :)
Wyndè