....May I add.. There is much beauty, serenity and grace in that acceptance,(and feeling from your words) Tulsi,so many new gifts which will unfold in that oneness of connection. I know what it is like to loose someone close, and that they never, ever leave you. It moves you into another place,with the possibilities of connections not of this place!
I want to share some soul pulling song lyrics from Schiller, (it's also a comforting song.)

I feel you
In every stone
In every leaf of every tree
That you ever might have grown

I feel you
In every thing
In every river that might flow
In every seed you might have sown

I feel you

I feel you
In every vein
In every beatin' of my heart
Each breath I take

I feel you, anyway
In every tear that I might shed
In every word I've never said

I feel you

I feel you
In every vein
In every beatin' of my heart
In every breath I'll ever take

I feel you, anyway
In every tear that I might shed
In every word I've never said

I feel you

I feel you.