THE VOID

The darkest of night
Penetrating to the core
An exploration of love
In all loves forms

Sacred, and holy
In peace
Daring to look deeply
At the reflection I see

There’s the hardest shell
Entombing my divinity
Blocking the light
Terrified of this place
This void that appears
In honesty’s place

To fully realize
All I can’t accept in this world
Is somewhere a part of me
Self realize
Self realize
The protection of my core
Can only be shattered open
By bearing all

Can I really find true humility?
Acceptance and surrender to it all?

These lessons of the soul
Confusing my mind
Deeper meaning through it all
Sometimes hard to find
Why is the world this way?
What is the cause?

I’ve forgotten my divinity amongst it all

Sadness draws in and swallows me whole
That I can never feel complete
Here
Never whole

Mind frozen
Heart broken
Just don’t understand anything at all
Path seems so harsh
It’s divinities call

This exploration of darkness
A whole universe of blackness
Self-loathing, cutting open…exposing it all

Different layers of healing
Take responsibility
For EVERTHING I create
Can I be this honest?
Accept the hate?

Slowly I plunder, stumbling
Eventually I fall
Want to give in
I’m just so tired of it all

Acceptance
Surrender
Soften into and through
To hold multiple truths
Here I’m not perfect
Yet the imperfection
Guiding the way
To divinity within

Unfolding slowly
Single petal at a time
Though hard to recognize
At all with the mind

Void of shattering Aloneness
Waiting silently
In the background of my consciousness
Resisting the pain
Of existing at all

Wrestling, screaming
Terrified to the core
I just want to deny it all!

I feel I know nothing
Nothing at all
Duality all around me
Mind can’t grasp two opposites
Oneness yet separate
Splitting me to the core

The only thing left to do
Is to feel it all
No escaping it now
Acceptance of opposites
Is this humanities call?