Hi guys,

Thanks for the comments. I am still waiting for the whole 'message' to unfold. In the meantime, found this:

"The vibrations of the number 5 are those of personal freedom and individuality, motivation, making positive life choices and major changes, transformation, adaptability and versatility, resourcefulness and auspicious opportunities..."

Sounds right, but it still doesn't 'hit it all'. I am not even sure what the question is about.

It seems to be more specific. Not that I need it to function now, but it feels like this is part of the changes, integration and standing in what I am (as a soul). Also it has to do with my name, that feels just not working. I feel like it's almost calling me something that is dead and envoking something that I feel more of gradually clearing rather than relating to. Feels very strange.

It started during and right after the course, and kept going on the airplane, where it seemed like my name is something with S... Whatever... I'm waiting for it to unravel.

Yesterday there was a message that made me cry, having to do something with "angel of death" and flashes of previous tasks (flashes of what happened and a bunch of feelings arising). Tough on my bodymind, which is making its best to 'survive' hhh the integration of all the changes, visions, and stuff. It's doing well, but needs some more sleep and privacy. I have little at the moment.

And today I was brought to read about angel Samil. Sometimes I feel like going crazy (because when working in the garden before the course, I got the word destroyer coming several times). It's a bit too much for so little time, but on the other hand there is a feeling there is no time anymore. Will watch it.

There is a lot of questioning going on, both helpful and not, you know, being careful with the guidance and messages.

Everything is so elusive and subtle now. Sigh :)