I think a key thing to remember here is to always look for the truth within the distortion - before trying to "solve" the problem. Can we instead transform the "problem"? Where is the gift in it?

What jumps out for me is the very last statement you made Hannah: "I can't make it on my own without someone there to back me up". What if there's a truth in this? What if there's a being out there that, at all times, has your back? What if there's "someone" always looking out for you and ensuring you have exactly what you need in any given circumstance?

What I'm referring to of course is the Twin Flame. In the Openhand perspective, she/he stays at the source and is the beacon of guidance through the density and back home. But also more than that. When you can hold the open dynamic of you and Twin Flame in relationships, and out in the world in general, then you build much energy between you - much kundalini. This is them immensely creative.

The problem is of course that the energy you feel and rely upon then manifests in particular ways. The problem comes if we attach too easily and then hit subconscious blind spots in those engagements. Then the psyche feels that it is being backed up by the physical other, rather than the physical other being your own manifestation. So begins the sense of dependency on them, Whereas what's really going on is that your Twin Flame has your back in all circumstances - we just fail at times to embody that.

The key will likely be in practising "tantra", in the wider sense. Both emotionally, sensually but also in the daily actualisation in life. Being in it, experiencing it fully, but always being sure to close the loop back at the source with your Twin Flame within you. So you're consciously completing the loop within and feeling that sense of completeness and support.

I wonder how that might shape the patterns?

Open 💙