Hi Helena, Welcome to Openhandweb and thanks for your sharing :wink: And yes exactly, although an outside mirror (a energetically sensitive or aware person) can point in the right directions, it is only you yourself that can figure out what influences in your field are benevolent or malevolent. It's all about motivation for action. If you trace the original thought that inspires your action, what is its affect on your system? If it does the following, then the source of the inspiration is not coming from your highest truth or benevolence...

1. if it causes you to get tight or worried, frustrated or angry
2. if it tends to build on your sense of identity and ego - especially including a spiritual identity
3. if it builds and develops conditioned behaviour patterns
4. if it causes you to envision or desire - to the point of attachment - for a particular outcome, future or reality
5. if it takes you away from communion with Mother Earth

These are just some of the key ones. On the other hand, you know that the guidance comes from your highest truth, supported by benevolence if the following tends to happen...

1. conditioned behaviours are activated and clearly exposed in the synchronistic mirror all around
2. the guidance tends to challenge you to break down ego and identity
3. you're challenged to let go of the need for an outcome
4. although it may take you into your darkness, it will guide you through so that you can dissolve it
5. each action ultimately leads to greater expansiveness, evolutionary growth and inner peace

If we watch our motivations for action and feeling then, we can unravel that which is benevolent in our field and that which is not. By giving energy to the truly benevolent actions, ultimately we totally negate the influence of the negative ones...

A native American grandfather was talking to his grandson about how he felt. He said 'I feel as if I have two wolves fighting in my heart. One wolf is the vengeful, angry, violent one. The other wolf is the loving, compassionate one.' The grandson asked him, 'Which wolf will win the fight?' The grandfather answered: 'The one I feed.' Native American Story

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