Hi Love-the-Journey,

You're certainly having a rich and colourful journey. It's fascinating watching your inquiry. I'll happily provide a reflection, but ask you then to consider, why is it that you manifested Openhand in your landscape? What do perceive Openhand's main philosophical approach to life and the flow is?

To the use of LSD, you write...

The best description of the desire I can give is that I strongly feel that the jumble in my mind caused by the freight train needs something a basis to settle on, and that basis can be created by a certain mindset I can obtain in this way.

I would say, from the experience of working with plenty of people, who've taken recreational drugs, "spiritual advancement drugs" (there's no such thing!) and also medicinal drugs, is that they probably won't provide the centred and balanced state you're looking for. Because the being is only temporarily shifted in consciousness, and also the being then mostly builds a subtle (but often unseen) association with the Drug causing access to that state. Rather than a progressively integrated state that becomes the steady anchor you can rely upon.

I would say that for sure, this is an unintegrated aspect of shadow that is calling the inquiry. Which might then be worthwhile going through with. BUT, there's another dynamic to factor in - you chose to have this inquiry here first. Your soul also called forth a reflection from Openhand. So the inquiry is ALREADY being had, whether you go through with it or not.

So here's part of that inquiry:

Considering Openhand's main approach to shifts of consciousness, have you consistantly applied breathwork, meditation, chakra attunement and integrating soul into your daily life flow?