Hi Eduardo,

Thanks for sharing your experiences here. I'm glad you had a good experience from DMT. I observe that Hallucinogenic drugs seem to be coming more popular these days as a means of inquiry. Personally I wouldn't advocate them, because the states reached can be more solidly and permanently attained through meditation. And there can be many side-effects. One person I know for example, went into quite intense paranoia from a DMT trip, which badly affected family relationships.

But yes, I acknowledge some people have had awakening experiences from them, which then provided a vehicle to explore forwards. If this happens, I would say it's still essential to move away from needing the drug, and instead, working to embody the experiences you might have gained but without them. As you seem to have done Eduardo - yes, if the feeling has a sense of soul rightness to it, connect with that feeling, and work to embody it as a particular way of being.

You asked...

If I can access those feelings in an easier way (via meditation) because I have clear memories of them, then what's the problem? Afterall, we all carry that memory of oneness and all we're really doing in our meditations is grasping for it. I also know the final goal is not about the joy - it's about the nothingness. But in that joy I can easily become nothing in it!

I would say in the beginning, yes, do what is necessary to get a sense of the mainstream of the soul. And importantly, something that you can keep accessing inside yourself, without needing some kind of drug to do it, which risks becoming dependency and shifting consciousness in a way that is misaligned.

Once you're sure you're into the mainstream of soul, then yes, use meditation to keep attuning the sense of that. BUT it's also essential to say, that it's important to honour whatever experience naturally arises, even if that is the opposite of joy and happiness. Because within that density, will likely be some fragment of soul wanting to emerge. And if we simply 'plaster over it' with some alternative state, then the likelihood is to miss that fragment, and over time, create an inner polarity which leads to the building of identity - the false love and light syndrome for example.

Wishing you well with your inquiries

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