Hi Myra, what you describe in your LSD experience is very much how a really expanded person would see and feel as a general state. One of the affects of these kinds of drugs, is that because they open you up really quickly, it becomes almost impossible to fully integrate. It also seems to cause many people not to want to go into their stuff. It can establish internal mental barriers to that. It's understandable if you've been suddenly dumped into the deep end of it. Or else what happens for some, is that they enjoy the expanded state so much, there's a barrier to going into their stuff in the future. Their consciousness subtly prevents them going there.

It's why in our work, we help people confront it through meditation at a manageable pace. It's about helping people expand and integrate in a progressive, manageable way, that they can integrate directly into their lives.

Do you also see how you still judge experiences as 'good' and 'bad'? Rather than as a possibility to evolve past identity with them (past judgment of them)? I've often noticed this as a key barrier that you face. It feels like there's a fear of the non identified state of Pure Presence. Taking LSD could well be the cause of that. It's exactly the kind of integration problem I've witnessed in others and thus warned about in my article.

If that's accurate, the key would be to now consciously work to break down judgment about what is a 'good' or 'bad' experience. To break through these internal mental barriers that are clearly there; work to relinquish attachment as you are deep within (supposedly negative) experiences through your daily life. Work progressively into the negative experiences and embrace them as an opportunity to evolve.

It is clear to me, that such psychedelics can really set people back on their path, for a variety of reasons, and for quite some time. Not that you can't overcome it, yes you can, but you have to be doubly committed to the inner inquiry.

Open <3