As I look through the comments, I noticed no one says that they are at gateway 5, or even 4, so naturally I would doubt if I personally would be at that gateway simply because of the tension created while thinking, "who will be the one to say it, and have others doubt them".

Well here is a brave step in "not doubting myself".

I feel, that all of my experiences as of late, completely relate to my perception of gateway 4.

As I felt I broke free, I get hit by life circumstance that brings up karma that hits me like a strong thunderbolt (literally that's what it felt like), to later come to the realization that: "Here it is, here is what is finally holding you back Cody.... your doubting yourself". That voice, that shadow that creeps in from its hiding place and holds on to me for dear life in tricky and masterful ways. Hehehehehe. You bastard!!

If I knew with ultimate certainty and without doubt that I could do anything, than I really could. That's beautiful, because its true.

Trusting in my true self, is the sweetest flow of letting go, it is the relaxed exalted and most natural state that opens up my heart and consciousness to infinity. Its the center of being that my ego was leading me towards by leading me away from it.

To integrate our natural state is... a dream come true.