It’s difficult to put an experience into words when it has been truly life changing.

My journey started weeks before the retreat when multiple flights were cancelled, one after the other. I surprised myself by not going into a tailspin but instead sat with what I now feel were Arcturian energies who helped me find an outgoing flight. I came to realise that I was embodying stoicism, a trait which has never been on my radar until now. It turns out I would need a bit of stoicism later on too!

Travel went pretty smoothly, apart from needing to run to catch the bus and then bang on the windows to be let on as it was leaving for the airport! I only just made it and I had the feeling the bus was being held for me, provided I showed my determination in the form of a good sprint!

Being in the Wadi Rum is totally surreal and feels like a dream that you don’t want to wake up from. The complete stillness is priceless and worth the journey just for that experience alone. At one point, the only sound I could hear was the flapping of a bird’s wings as it flew over my head. The light codes on the rock faces are palpable and highly impactive. Many times, I sat looking at the rock faces and was activated on some as-yet unknown level. It was highly emotive for me.

The view from my cabin window…

The visit to Petra was a great experience and it felt amazing to be part of such a special group of souls as we worked in the location. The singing chakra meditation as a group felt incredibly powerful, although my personal highlight was when the group spilt and myself, Megha, Michele and Dagmar went to a spot that had some well-known history to it. The four of us did a singing chakra meditation and we helped release a lot in the space. It feels to me as though this small contribution will be felt further afield in time to come.

The studio work on this retreat has been off the scale. Witnessing the incredibly deep explorations that everyone had was amazing, and there was no shortage of deep explorations of my own. I could feel the identity breaking apart at one point pretty early on in the week and I felt more of who I really am as the week went on.

The connections with the star beings this week are beyond words. At one point I could feel the Pleiadeans dancing and singing, and was also able to clearly feel the other star beings too. I had never experienced such clarity of frequencies before, so for me, it was really special. A real highlight for me was when we expressed the frequencies of the star beings through movement and sound – it was so much fun!

I was also able to explore shared karma with three other participants and it was a powerful and heart-warming experience to share some special moments together when breaking through it all. I don’t think I will ever forget those moments.

During the week I had special connections with Magdelene, the Pleiadeans and the Orions in particular. The connections were really stand-out for me.

There were so many amazing experiences – it seemed like one after the other all week, but one in particular stands out that I feel to share here. During the lunch break on the second day, I went for a walk in the desert, feeling the pull to walk to the opposite side of the canyon. I got to around halfway when an incredibly loud missile flew over. It was so loud (as were the accompanying explosions when it was intercepted) that it felt like it was literally right above my head. Admittedly, and probably understandably, my initial reaction was an expletive with an accompanying huge adrenalin surge. I now had a choice. Do I go back to the ‘safety’ of the camp or do I carry on, taking the risk that I might get injured or worse, if another missile came in. So, I paused for a moment, did some breakthrough breathing, and then a thought dropped in… I wasn’t going to let a couple of missiles stop me from getting to the other side of the canyon so, still feeling slightly shaken, I continued forward with determination and drive. It’s hard to put this across fully here but to me, the risk was in moving forward. It felt like I was exposing myself to danger by being exposed in the open desert. Somehow, will and drive just seemed to well up within me and I pushed on regardless of the very real risk to me. As I made the decision to continue forward, I could feel and hear cheering in the ether – I was supported in that moment and whichever group that was cheering, it was strongly felt.

The final evening was absolutely brilliant, with an impromptu disco in the main cabin – sooo much fun!

The journey home has certainly been quite the adventure. The night before I was due to fly home, I got a notification that my flights home had been cancelled. Again, not going into fear or worry, I booked a new flight with a nod from the Arcturians regarding the right flight for me.

The first of two flights home was delayed by around an hour which left a very short window of time to get the next flight. After flying through security and running through the airport as fast as my legs could carry me, I only just made the flight, being the final passenger to board. But the adventure didn’t stop there! As the plane came in to land, the weather conditions were incredibly challenging, as the plane battled against very strong winds, tilting sharply from left to right as it tried to land, the plane shaking and dropping repeatedly in mid-air. Just as we were about to touchdown, the pilot aborted the landing which was quite the experience in itself! I knew that it would be so easy to go out of body in an experience like that, especially coming in to land for the second time in the same conditions so I just kept breathing into the base chakra as I felt the fear and sat with the worst-case scenario. I don’t think I fully broke through it but I was at least present and grounded in yet another life-threatening situation…

I have been thoroughly tested this past week but have found myself laughing (afterwards!) at the crazy situations I have co-created. It truly feels like I have been forging soul this week and I am (strangely) looking forward to the next challenge! Bring it on!

Although I have been pushed to the limit (and beyond) this week, I wouldn’t change a single thing and feel weirdly grateful for the challenges I have faced. Apart from the challenges, the week has been filled with heaps of fun and lightness, including when I felt compelled to run outside into the lashing rain to sing and dance! I was drenched to the bone but didn’t care at all!

Here’s to dancing in the rain!

With love (and some extra love to my fellow Jordan retreaters)

Nikki