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Dear Open ,

I am going to describe something that’s been bubbling up for me since the retreat in Jordan. It’s hard to put into words exactly -but here goes. This ties in with the karmic processes of many both on Earth and in the Ether .And across many lifetimes. This also speaks to the Drama triangle -Victim ,Abuser and Resuer . I have been building capacity to stay with this dynamic ( Shame is known to be the most difficult emotions to metabolise ) . I believe that is the key one to shift to undo the drama triangle . We have all have been in one of the sides at some point during our karmic experiences . I am not sure if this ties in with the release of the Tall Whites .

Since the Jordan pilgrimage ,I have been aware that there was a significant Life time ( or plural) in which I was responsible for overseeing child abuse as a way to garner and or maintain the Structure ( and funding ?) of the temple of Isis . This shameful ritual was the bedrock of the pyramid structure of power - leading to suffering that was deep and kept into place by Shame of the victims . It also led to the sense of power over the victims and energetically kept in place the victim-abuse-rescuer dynamic which has fed the simulation through karmic wounding thus far. The rituals and systemic abuse continue through to this day ( I cannot describe how hard it is for me to write these words) .

I am seeing how it was these actions that caused the karmic conditions for the witch-burning as women that were at the helm of affairs so to speak got their karmic comeuppance . ( I was one of those - I remember) . All of this was done as an act of worship to Ra. And the resistance i have to writing these words also comes from that entity.

I think its time that many of us that have sacral blocks become aware of these and start to process out the shame . I am “seeing” how this shame in the sexual centre has influenced much of my life and I am seeing so many reflections in so many people and situations . I incidentally visited a facility for a position which is idyllically close to my passion project - my cottage in the hills. And guess what I learned - the charismatic leader was convicted of sexual abuse .

As I Bowed into all these stories and emotions ,I could feel something in the field shift . As if what was hidden is now reflected ,what was suppressed is now demanding accountability be taken ,what appeared unbreakable ..is now broken

I felt to add this video which for me exemplifies the sheer forgiveness and resilience it must take to overcome this form of abuse .

I must add that it has taken so many lifetimes to get here to the point that I can accept this fact... And to see it as the Truth. I suspect many lifetimes were about trying to rescue victims or announcing the truth Without the requisite processing of karma.

This ties into both of the relationships of my life as well. Again both of these beings have been playing some part or other of this triangle for a long time.

I will be grateful for reflections and especially if I have incorrectly perceived any aspect.

Deep Bow to the courageous ones all around me

Megha