Hi Open,

I have no idea what's going on but I don't care. I would say this is how the dragon energy impacts me most. There honestly is no desire for any outcome. But some days it feels like I'm 'doing nothing', like I need to figure out the thing. What thing? Yes. It seems a form of anxiety taken on by the ego as something has changed, something has ended and moved on. For lack of a better term, I will call this phase one.

However, remarkably small things have happened that make me think that this whole not caring about an outcome thing actually works in a way that does not fit within the linguistical way of thinking. It's not about an 'I don't care' attitude, there's just... nothing there. Anything trying to connect to an outcome finds nothing to connect to and as such has no importance apart from whatever importance I give it based on whatever other factors are at play.

Especially when it comes to diet a lot has changed without ever really deciding to do so. 90% plant-based vegetarian, often one meal per day and if not, the six hour window. I do these not because I decided to do so, but because not doing so has lost its charm somehow. Why? How? I don't ask these questions as I am tired of self-analysis. I feel like it. There's no other reason to have.

Now it's really about trust. It was relatively easy when the signs and synchronisities just kept lining up. The past two weeks I have felt as if it was all slipping away. Now I understand I moved on to the next class, so to speak. I have seen enough to acknowledge the trust. Now how will I react as everything seems to be 'going back to normal' on the surface? It is fading into a distant memory, which is interesting and strange given the rollercoaster ride of the past 1,5 year. However, I am observing this reaction and am amused by it so in the end it's fine.