Hi Ella,

This is a very important sharing about the nature of discipline on the path, including where it can go wrong, which I encourage all to read.

You said...

I noticed that I can automatically/unconsciously do bodywork or walk/run in the woods or meditate and then be lulled into thinking this is still discipline when even within this bodywork or walk or meditation, a new level of dull comfort is being established, there is no longer the drive to push myself further. There is a loss of this wild « alive » feeling that I originally experienced.

This is the essential point about disciplined activity - such as strong bodywork, for example. The crucial key is NOT to go unconscious. It's a fundamental misunderstanding of discipline, and what the video above on Stoicism was getting to. True discipline does NOT come by forcing things. And definitely NOT by going unconscious in activities. Yes, that will lead to dullness of awareness, and actually suppress the soul.

But there is a conscious discipline whereby you bring active awareness deep into the feelings - of tighening through the muscles for example, or the feeling of pressure and pain. Where do you identify or reject the experiences? Why? Is that still conditioning to soft comfort and ease? In which case, you're hitting the other side of the coin - the dampening effect of too much ease.

You then went on to say...

And there’s that creeping little voice that says: « You’ve worked hard enough, why not treat yourself to some rest? Be proud of yourself just for doing bodywork, why not perform an easier routine today? It’s ok if you don’t go past thinking in your meditation, you have a lot on your mind right now… »

What was your view on this? Because to me, this is classic gaslighting from the 4D field, perhaps by an entity fuelling it. Possibly Tall Whites. How do they work?

They come in on a truth: "Don't be rigid and hard in your discipline". But then twist it further: "Take it easy, don't push too hard. Take some comfort."

Something to be keenly aware of. A run is not just a run - like everything, it's all a possibility to evolve and grow at the soul level.

Well wishes
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