Hello Open

This resonates with me greatly.  Since a child, I 'knew' I hadn't chosen to be here.  All my adult life, I've been told by spiritual teachers that I did choose to be here & the reason is to continue to learn lessons.  But I questioned why would I want to continue on this 'hamster wheel' when I know it's not home & every lesson I learn is erased from my conscious memory at each incarnation anyway. That just didn't make sense to me. This 'knowing' has shaped my life in a way...always being the outsider, not wanting to engage in the usual day to day trivia that seems to amuse the majority, moving from place to place trying to find somewhere I could call 'home' etc.....but I've held strong to my truth & within the last few years have come to learn how I was tricked & trapped, as you speak about. Now, I'm so completely at ease with what's happening at this time, because I know I will never be tricked again & I'm heading back to my real home!