I spent the last several days camping in a forest above a mountain with a view of the city below. I suppose the motivation for having this experience was curiosity—how does my energy feel away from human matrix programming? Will I be able to connect much more strongly with other multidimensional energies?

I realized in society, we are continuously reconfirmed as an identity—a person with a name, gender, and so on. It's only natural that we've learned to accept and identify with this. But I was receiving a different reflection in the forest. There was no one there to confirm the identity. The forest mother, with all her love, does not need me to be her son! As a result, I was able to get closer to my true self. I had to investigate several aspects of this identity consciousness. Identification with one's gender is significant. In my childhood, I was considered a boy, and in my adolescence, I was labeled a man. Yes, in this incarnation, but what about the previous times when I was a woman or a girl?

There was no shortage of reptilian or BS reflected in the forest. I had made an affiliation with these energies due to the above identifications. Of course, the energies are just there to serve this identity. That's their purpose! The reptilian was 'earning' me respect, worthiness, power, and admiration, among other things. Where these identifications with the masculine were present, letting go is regarded as a sign of weakness. Is it necessary for the "One" in me to bear them in order to gain such external validation? After several illuminations, I could make peace with the identity and this interfering consciousness, which was serving a common purpose—bringing unconsciousness to light. As the judgments dissolved, I witnessed that these energies were much more willing to leave my field and go where they belonged.

A piece from my tent had separated - green snake?

On the first day, I tried to go to the mountain with a few fellow Openhanders, but there was a strong response from Gaia. On the way, a tree uprooted and crashed down, missing us by an inch. It was simple to conclude that I was not destined to carry out my intentions, and it also fed some anxiety I had been harboring. One of the main concerns was that I would get attacked by some wild animal. However, upon deeper inquiry, it catalyzed some loosening of rigidity surrounding the entire notion of moving and meditating for a few days. After that, it became more of a curiosity play and flow in action.

I sense there are intervention energies that can easily hijack the soul Impulses to fit us within their own agendas and we need to be constantly inquiring about the right action. The impulse to go was still pretty strong. I also felt strong supportive energy from Gaia and Forest mother. - a sense of love, protection, and guidance. I knew I would be looked after.

I actually became sick on the first day by trying to jam everything according to my mind's perspective. I had to learn to let go and be okay with a bit of chaos and a lot of uncertainty. But, as I imagined, as the fever subsided on the second day, the connection with the elements took center stage. I was enjoying Gaia's loving support and nurture, unconditionally accepting my mistakes, and caring wholeheartedly. That's what I felt in my heart. Many distinct layers of karma were activated, including failure, abandonment, annihilation, perfection, and the burden of responsibility. I guess the reason I'm still here!

It was poignant that the spot where I used to sit for meditation was surrounded by four trees connected by three metal cables to a larger tree. Humans' ignorance in treating this sentient life as if it were a piece of wood post! The large tree on the cliff edge appeared to be ready to leap off at any time. The first and second wires had weakened, but the third wire remained rather strong. This, I believe, refers to being related to karma primarily through the mental plane.

Away from the hold of the matrix, I was seeing more visions than ever. One of the visions in a meditation appeared significant. I witnessed the slope collapse, with trees falling on both sides, yet a bridge had been created in the center. Humanity is being invited to cross the bridge. However, the bridge eventually became a tunnel through which souls traveled at the speed of light. I'm curious if this possibly symbolizes the soul harvesting that can occur when souls are drawn into a 4D collective energy? This has been a recent inquiry I have been having.

I did an experiment on the last full moon while sitting beside the fire. I shifted between connecting with Gaia and the moon's energy. I did this several times to make sure I was not projecting my beliefs onto the feelings. I guess my mind still needs this trial and error to fully trust my feelings. But the result was unequivocal. Every time Gaia came to my consciousness, my heart would open to expansive loving energy in the heart, but the moon would contract me down, especially in the sacrum and the third eye! I assume we carry these impacts into our field most of the time without realizing it.

I also carried out another experiment. I asked my body if I felt like eating something specific at this moment, and it would constrict down in the sacrum. When I thought about fasting, my body would respond by opening up. This is something I will do my best to remember, especially when presented with difficult choices. I could simply ask my heart and body! I wondered if I could live like this forever, just connecting with Gaia and getting away from the program, but the fire elemental had a different message, emphasizing that being in the thick of it and bringing my light to illuminate the relationships with others is when the higher self comes down to meet the lower!

It's fascinating how being away from distractions such as social media can elevate consciousness, and then many things in nature can speak to our soul. I'm leaving my tent and other equipment here as I go down tomorrow so that I can come back and spend a few more days. Perhaps the forest has more messages for me?

Vimal