Dear Hannah - it's tremendously commendable and inspiring the way you're illuminating your inner process and working to unravel the various impulses 💙

What it might help to reflect, is that when you go into the gym and pump weights, the muscles will get soar and tired. What do I mean?

Most people are not even engaging with the source of the various impulses that makes them do what they do and follow a certain path. As we start doing this, we'll quickly realise it's like walking through a minefield. The soul has gotten fragmented into various behaviourisms that are purposefully being played upon, and preyed upon, by the intervention. But the crucial thing to realise and accept in oneself, is that all of these distortions are those of truth. Meaning there was a truthful soul impulse at the heart of them.

So as you peel back the layers, yes you'll get pulled this way and that. And you'll uncover new soul impulses that take you strongly in certain directions. Of course it's not wrong to enjoy pleasure. We need that soul food on a regular basis. Even dopamine releases are a good physical reflection of soulful expression. The crucial difference is that they're coming from an active participation with reality rather than it being from spoonfeeding.

Ultimately it's about finding your middle path. Through constant internal illumination - by being totally present in the behaviours - even where we know we're slipping into distortion, that's okay. You're working to realise where the natural boundaries are. Soft comfort is necessary, but if that's the only expression we entertain, then it becomes a debilitating and demotivating program.

It's essential not to self-judge - because this creates blockages to full immersion in the experience. It's only in the full immersion that we get to experience the natural boundaries. And so it becomes a progressive process of breaking down the density and finding aligned and authentic soul expression through any given activity.

Let's say my passion is mountain climbing - which I really love. I might also enjoy good food, but too much good food means I'm less able to climb. So it's a balance - feeding all aspects of the soul and finding the best background state of homeostasis that supports all of these soulful activities.

You're doing great - keep going!

Open 💎