Dear Open ,

All the themes you mention hit close to home. I have been aware of the block in my throat chakra for a while now . And the handing over of power to a paternal figure is also a very familiar theme . Also my life circumstances are impelling me to take that power back - bit by bit as I can see how its so easy for me to fall into the pattern of handing it over to a strong masculine presence .Seeking validation of my very existence to an entity outside of my self feels at once a trauma response and an old habit . This is the very nature of abuse is it not - wherein the Magdalen dynamic casts off her power and then feels victimised . In the morning today I “saw” how the victim is also a movement that I chose to take on. And now I can do something else with the wellspring of power within me .

Just this morning I was deeply examining why I needed anyone’s permission but my own to unfurl into authentic expression . And I was feeling into the “old programs “ in my solar plexus that seemed to impede my unashamed authentic expression. Vis-à-vis the sexual energy and its application there is a lot of shame in my field ,and that is also something that I have been exploring recently .

In many ways ,I am very much looking forward to Jordan though a part of me is afraid of losing an old, old identity .And yet once the energy is released ,a big knot will unravel in the middle East . I can “see” that unfolding .

The above sentences are mine and those of Isis as she is trying to align herself with the Shift and …Freedom .

Deep Bow . The interesting times get more and more interesting .

Megha