Hi Remy,

I'm not sure that you've fooled yourself actually - more that you're likely coming into different states of awareness - I sense you're evolving and integrating quite quickly on the path.

In the beginning, when fully in the ego but opening up, the higher self will start to appear in signs, synchronicity and metaphor - a vision or maybe a creature in nature for example. But as this integrates more, then the sense of the Twin Flame will start to come into view. The Twin Flame is highly alchemical and "supernatural" as you point to. It is the other polarity of you, which stays near the source as you incarnate, and then guides you on a journey of Ascension "back home" by reflecting resonating signs into your outer experience, but inviting the sense of that to embody within you. I get the sense you've been connecting with this energy.

To know if the ego is still running the show?
The question is what is your moment by moment orientation in life? Are you always working to come from the soul? You can still be in the ego at this point, but if the yearning inner commitment is for the truth of the soul, this would indicate passage through Gateway 2. Or at least that one is approaching this threshold.

Ultimately the soul is to be fully embodied, including the sense of the Twin Flame - although at higher dimensions. And even when the soul is fully embodied, it will still marvelously reflect into the outer, with a rich and alchemical dance.

Bright blessings

Open 🙏