Hi Open, thanks for holding space for this, even while you're busy at Dartmoor. For me, besides the usual childhood betrayal, dismissal, neglect, etc., it would be this intolerance of other people's behaviours which of course usually come from my own. It's like i have this overbearing sense of superiority and i try to control other people. It's like i'm two people and one of them thinks she's the queen of the world. And then when people find out what triggers me by my getting frustrated with them, they use it against me to get their power back, understandbly. i read in a psychology article that people who only get attention from parents when they're being punished but otherwise get marginalised and ignored often end up with this dual narcissist/people pleasing personality. i wish to break free of this. Prescence and awareness are helping, but i'm still working on anchoring to my SGOB so i can become non-reactive, but i'm finding it challenging as i'm so used to disassociating and letting my attention wander off into some fantasy or plans for the future. Staying present is taking work. But staying calm and letting people be and being nonjudgemental and fully authentic are some of my biggest struggles. Also attention-seeking, needing validation, limerence is a big one, and just all-around ego attachment. i appreciate your thoughts, thank you💙