Wow that’s quite a question. For me there was a certain blankness just contemplating it before anything landed. The repetitive theme in this lifetime seems to be a sense of abrupt visceral betrayal - of going from states of joy and connectiveness and wonder into sudden shock and trauma. It seems like the initial “blankness” in the inquiry was a cover for a feeling of futility or pointlessness that no matter how well things may be going it is always just a moment away from sudden trauma.