Thank you for the reminder; still letting myself get led around by my old impulses and conditioning, the "avoidance of pain/seeking pleasure" habit being a strong one. but i have to admit, besides still not practicing enough, i struggle getting to that middle place beyond good and bad. but i feel im getting closer. slowly letting go more and more of whats blocking me. the problem is i dont really know "myself" and get uncomftortable and jump back to my habitual self. your work has helped me though to start getting stronger and help me face the hard stuff. this holiday was particularly fruitful. i faced the core mother wound that ive avoided for so long and has been poisoning my relationships. i had to face that my mother hated me. but then i found the light; i wasnt to blame, i wasnt unworthy. she didnt hate me she hated herself because thats what her mother did to her. the wound needs more clearing but i finally got there. and then i found a new way of being with a conflict i created with a coworker. instead of the nasty rejection i use to protect myself not even thinking how i hurt people, i told her the truth in a kind way. very good moments of breakthrough and honouring my soul for once. so grateful. really starting to feel like i could actually heal. and even though i still have so much to work through and my hanging on will slow down the work, im on my way. im yearning to find that rightness of being! thank you💜🙏