Such an important article and reminder during the craziness going on right now.

Recently I was feeling increasingly trapped in routine. I had to work a lot and found myself in a kind of loop. I was dealing with all kinds of problems, learning my lessons and basically making sure I stay sane. And then the war came. I am not working right now, and suddenly I am free from all this burden that strangled me. My focus totally shifted from everyday petty worries to new fears, new challenges and new feelings and sensations. When extreme stuff is going on, it's like we have to find ourselves out anew. So I make sure to welcome this newness, and I flow with whatever comes up next, yet I do not forget how to keep it light and make sure to stick to what helps.

A lot of people, the majority, create fear and pressure. So much judgment and refusal to look in the mirror. I am glad to see I don't bend under this pressure anymore.

And the most important take away from this situation - I am ready to die. I feel that whatever happens - I am okay with that. I mean why would I be scared of liberation from this form? Being human is so hard. I yearn for joy, for peace, for the beauty of nature and people, and for my own unravelling. And I really yearn for the darkness and denseness to be transformed and lifted.

I used to think I need to do something special, to argue with people, but now I know that such a small act as turning the music on and dancing can have an enormous impact, not because I intend it, but because it changes me and my energy, but I am connected with everything, so it just ripples out naturally without needing to do anything special.

I observe and I wonder what will happen after the war is over, if I survive. Where will I find myself? Is it going to change anything in my life? I stay open. And I keep learning everywhere and from everything. Every situation is an opportunity to reveal and learn something new about ourselves, no matter how challenging it is.

Love,

Yulia