I don't know if I want to pose a question or say something that I have been working with as well. Because this post and the subsequent reply seems to tie well with what I have been feeling as well.

The question might be, how can you then be committed to the journey when the ego is going to do what it's going to do?

The mind seems to come up with many intentions to be committed and be the light, to feel purposeful , motivated yet what happens is sliding into lethargy or addictive behaviours. Yesterday I was reading the article - the spiritual path as the infinite game and it made a lot of sense. It's not about getting anywhere like the mind intentions. And today I can feel a rejuvenated sense of surrender and acceptance. But I think basically what happens is that the mind attaching itself to positive experience and finding ways to sustain it, control it thus maybe overriding other lessons. But what needs to happens will happen and maybe one can accept it without resistance. And from that place commitment can naturally arise without intention.

Lol I seem to be answering my own question.