Hi Open,

Thank you for the articles and the important comment about mistakes Recently I've been observing the last decade and the 'mistakes' I've made. Your lines made me feel more soft and forgiving toward myself. I want to say a couple of things.

1. (Maybe I'm wrong) About fear... I used to see fear as limiting and as 'bad'. Until I learned that fear can be a sign that something highly not benevolent is going on and my body is trying to show me because I ignore more subtle signs. This lesson came through a series of experiences and then I ran into this instrumental guitar track called 'Saved by fear': https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FNUXCC0nYjg

Entities know how to turn every useful tool into a weapon and how to use what I know to be good and use as a signpost on my path as a trap to the point of almost being unable to distinguish. Experiences like expansion and pleasant states can become a diversion, whereas feelings and sensations that are labeled as something not 'divine' can actually serve at times.

2. I resonated when you wrote about surrender distortion a lot! When the feminine aspects begin to unravel it is important for me not to 'kill' the masculine. I've made a mistake and decided that since my process is about working with the feminine, than there will a be a man who will protect me during that process. So no such thing. Other people cannot be used as a wheelchair while some aspect of me is 'resting'. The balance always should be found within (I can't believe I fell with this one hh).

We know how the masculine energy expresses itself when distorted. I've been exploring how distorted feminine can express itself and what can be the consequences.

3. Syncs are amazing. A sad revelation is that OC knows how to mimic them. They know this language too. I do use synchronicity but I do not just accept all syncs blindly. The mind has this ability to find connections where there aren't any and some things can seem strongly correlated when there is absolutely no connection between them. The mind creates this out of internal distortions and related external diversions.

That's it. Thank you again,

Yulia <3