Hi Barb,

Sounds like you're having a productive time with the meditation.

It's a classic "problem" you ask about...

As soon as ( became aware of it I lost it!

Usually it's because of a disconnect happening in one aspect of the psyche. What do I mean? Firstly the aim is not strictly to go out of body but to transcend it here in time and space - meaning to steadiy dissociate from it by equalising with it and thereby passing through it. Yes, there can be the tendency to simply go out of body, which can happen a lot to people. Hence you're disconnecting one aspect of awareness - perhaps the mind. So the expanded state suddenly "jumps up on you". That's why there's a degree of "shock" when you look into it and therefore you suddenly disconnect from that state. Better is the progressive transcendence and then the expanded state becomes a familiar part of your experience - because you've equalised with it, then it becomes a natural part of your inner landscape. Therefore there's no "shock" because you suddenly notice it.

I know this may sound a degree complex. But I'd say the solution is to very extremely intimate with all of the feelings and awareness as you progressively go into the expanded state.

Something to explore for sure.

Open