Hi Pam - thanks so much for sharing your invaluable Kundalini experiences here on Openhandweb. We very much welcome that, and thankyou for having the courage to do so.

What you're describing is classic kundalini activation - the rising of energy from the base that then hits various blockages that need to be worked through - and at times throwing you into disarray - you become "discombobulated", yes!

The more awareness we bring to this as a community, the more we will help everyone.

You ask what happens to kundalini once it is activated? In short it becomes an integrated aspect of your beingness and way of being - your way of existing in life. You're then acting in a streaming flow of synhcronicity, which (kind of) normalises.

I should say all the challenges don't go away at that point - they just get more recongisable and you tend to then work more on the group level. They become less of a burden though since you recognise your movement within the greater whole - the challenges have sense and purpose.

Be prepared that full Kundalini Activation can be a lengthy process lasting a couple of years of so. For some there will be a powerful and major activation. For others it will be progressive over time, with lost of intermediary breakthroughs that feel like release and integration.

There with you!

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