Hi Open,

I see the truth in your words. I come from an idea of myself very often. An idea gives a sense of control as opposed to vulnerability. It's my way of mapping out the steps that I could take. I catch myself spending much time in the head often.

You ask " what is the expectation you have of yourself, rather than to be"

I believe its the need to have purpose, being useful, having value etc. This has been an important reflection today. I see that when I'm on the bright side I actively engage in the world and everythings fine. I have been holding this question without much clarity for some time now. How can I consume, take on from this world and others without providing any value or being useful. Intuitively I know the answer is that our very being is enough and useful. Then why doesn't it feel that way at times. What about those who consume without giving back. This is also a reflection or something I perceive in my immediate circumstance.

I'm our last conversation you talked about the importance of looking( a source of income in this case) without efforting. But it's also said that in 5D manifestation things come towards us and all we need to do is to commit to it. Indeed this has also been my experience in few cases. But it's often one or the other for me. How does one keep a balance?

Thankyou <3

Vimal