Thanks Open and Lyra for the support! Seems like something broke through yesterday. Yes, there's a lot of guilt, shame and a deep fear involved. The words choice and empowerment stayed with me though and by some almost ceremonial event I could pierce through the illusion. Even in the face of severe abuse it's still the same game, part of me had a hard time surrendering to that. Even torture is 'only' an experience, no matter what's being done. It doesn't make it right, yet the sense of freedom comes through. They can own my body, but I Am.

The Marvel scene is awesome!

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