Dear Open ,

I didn't mention this but the other strange thing that happened after I did my best to hold my child like grief ( took a whole day of being with it,expressing it a lot of tears) I felt a distinct electric pulse go up my base. Almost as if the energy unraveled enough to become part of the Whole . I'm also feeling like an orphan . As if I don't belong to my family of origin anymore . Not in a angry sense . Just that I don't relate with them much anymore . As Marion Woodman says ,there is abandonment and there is also wild abandon of being an orphan . I'm feeling a little bit of both .

I am going to re-read that chapter . It feels like new everytime !

Megha