Hi Paul and Megha,

Thank you both so much for sharing.

Megha, my heart goes out to you and the challenging but wonderful work that you seem to be doing. I get the feeling you’re exactly where you need to be, and I kind of envy that a little bit. I still haven’t figured out what I’m supposed to be doing in this world. And don’t worry about not responding to my last post. I know the process isn’t linear. It constantly changes level and direction, and after being deep into something one day, new things will pop up the next and the energy will shift. It’s like the flow bounces you around giving you bits and pieces, here and there, sometimes seemingly unrelated, but then suddenly it all comes together as a bigger piece of the puzzle. At least that’s how I experience it. (Or maybe it’s just a distortion, I don’t know.)

I can so relate to my mind being ‘mush’ these days as well. Yesterday, I completely FORGOT to go to work. I don’t have fixed work days and I work kind of sporadically, but THIS has never happened. I was deep into the toroidal flow of the ‘removing implants and entities’ meditation when I received a ‘Wake Up’ call from a colleague wondering where the heck I was. I was mortified.

It frightens me a bit because I find my attention withdrawing more and more from the 3D world, and it’s becoming harder and harder to function in it. I know I missed work because on some level, I couldn’t care less about it. There was no energy in it. Sometimes I’m afraid I will start saying or doing weird things in society around me that I won’t be able to control. Although I’m no longer attached to society itself, I’m still attached to ‘functioning’ in society, so when a thing like having to go to work completely slipped my mind, it really freaked me out. What’s next...?

Paul, Wow, what a sharing! I can only repeat my compliment from before and add to it. You’ve got some guts coming out like that, over and over! It touched something in me. I don’t know exactly what it is yet, but I feel something beginning to fall apart inside me. I’m coming face to face with something I didn’t know I was avoiding. I have been in an uncomfortable place ever since I read your sharing and I feel all the usual defence mechanisms wiring up. I hope I may have something to share with you soon that makes a little more sense. ‘Mush mind’ doesn’t work right now.

A deep heartfelt thanks to you both

Love,

Anastasia