Oh my God, it just landed on me that this is exactly the sense of disconnection and there is so much fear, clinging, control and sadness around it. I had an "experience".

Several days ago there was a seminar... Did you know that ganglia, in PNS, despite being totally able to survive on their own, yet, if are not connected to others, die? So I thought the lesson is that of connection and interdependence. But that's the big fear. Huge. It is all about survival. And actually, so sad, this connection is what eventually killed them, it is like being betrayed by love, what they felt as one big endless field of love, so aesthetic, so close to the truth, how could they know it was just a limited and distorted version of the real thing that totally pulled them away from the source? This is tough. We see it here all over the place. Probably, we all experience it to some extent, and the deep, painful disappointment connected to it too.

I am feeling very sad and, at the same time, happy that there is an open way for this.

There is something else to "rely on", even though it is ever-changing and totally not definable...