This is funny. My primary occupation in Facebook says I am Siriuser at Sirius. I meant it as a joke. Life has its funny ways to hint on things and give us road-signs even that I had no idea it was a road-sign, up till I read the article which is hhh

I am glad I felt to go on the website today. The timing is so perfect. So I know we are connected, I am connected and everything is okay. Because I am within this whole thing right now, it's been months... It was always here, I just wasn't able to look at or experience it in its clarity and full intensity, but now it is HERE. Everything you describe...

There is also the whole topic of addictions that arises from all 4 sources and ends in them, loops, and loops within the loops within the loops, one huge Groundhog day, a program, and the pressure grows the more I look at it, until everything goes boom at some point. To me, addictions are like a replication of karmic looping in a world of manifestations.

It is all a lot of pain, on all levels. I never understood, how come there is so much pain in the world and how can it possibly be okay? But.. what happens after is worth it, it is worth everything that ever happened, it is worth dying for, in all ways possible. It is worth going blind for too.

What else is there to say? What helps me is just being there, sometimes holding my own hand, hugging myself, loving myself, taking a good care of myself after every breakthrough, because before that I am usually brought to the limit and beyond... And this whole compassionate detachment, a moment before everything fades. It doesn't work with just compassion or just detachment. I just gotta find my heart back in all of it.

Hugs to everybody who is going through it. You are not alone. This whole thing is wow. Tough shit, but also super-wow.

Cheers <3