Yesterday I had an experience which showed me that constructs do not only form in the mind as ideas and viewpoints. It forced me to confront what turned out to be a physical construct. It also worked to illuminated the difference between feeling right as opposed to polarising right and wrong.

In the early afternoon I had been resting for a short while and found that my right eye was suddenly alarmingly blurry. I rubbed it, cleaned it with water and there was no change. I couldn't make out anything and from all experiental viewpoints there was something very wrong. I admit my first action was to look up what this could be which, obviously, brought me down the 'it is probably a horrible affliction which requires immediate medical attention' and the fear and anxiety that came with that. But I then considered, hold on a moment, what is the reason for this? I calmed myself down and asked, does it feel wrong? Apart from the mind going 'of course this is wrong, because it is definitely not good!' the feeling sense was that this was alright. So accepting the fear and anxiety until it wasn't defining me, I asked, what could this mean? Why did this happen? What will I do now? Am I going to accept minor setbacks as part of the path, but then run back to the 3D 'solution' when something like this happens? Something strengthened inside me at that last question. Hell no!

Let's just go to the park. Ok, soul. Leave those glasses! One eye's completely screwed now, let's make the other one as blurry as possible as well. It'll be fun. Uhm, not sure about that but ok. So there I went on my bicycle to the local park, with enough view to not crash into anyone or anything (my normal sight without glasses isn't that bad) Taking off my shoes and sitting on a bench with my feet on the soil. Letting go of the question on an intellectual level. One of those leaves that spins around as it falls came by at a few centimetres right in front of my eyes. It was windy so it moved from the right to the left, from the very blurry to the not so blurry. Immediately I knew what the eye problem meant: too much looking at things with the left brain! Why didn't I realize that sooner? Another of those leaves moved by at about ten metres away. Oh, because I wasn't anywhere near the answer. Aha, because I am reaching for explanations with the left brain. I do that a lot, don't I? Wow. That was fast, nature.

I then closed my eyes and meditated on this, there was a feeling of revelation as I realized just how much left brain I had been using in meditations as well. It's funny how things can be blatantly present and still remain unnoticed. So I let go and reached a state I cannot describe as the left brain took a well deserved break. A lesson had been learned. With my eyes closed I even forgot about the blurry sight until at one point a feeling which is also difficult to describe, the closest would be as if someone just lightly pressed it. I opened my right eye and it was a little bit less blurry. I was grateful but also contemplated, if it stays like this, can I accept that? The answer was, yes, It'll suck but I'll manage. By yesterday evening, the 'problem' had resolved itself.